ghost

i floated, I wafted through you, i paused...
then carried on my way.
I made my way through others' selves
I never forgot.
those others' selves i never forgot
and how they weren't like you.
they were cloudy, thick exhausting.
wore me down to muddy hues.
I turned black, and black i was.
heavy stained the shadows of my eyes.
I did feel ugly, and i felt sad.
because once i felt something better.
I once compared it to the rest
and then the rest was less than okay.
I fell heavy because I once felt you.
~ Chelsea